I have blogs everywhere. I think if we talk about wedding, I have at least 3 blogs where I talked about it at different phase of my life. I don't know what we can do. Maybe one day I will import everything over here.
Today marks the 100th day Ah Ma left. I still find it hard to believe that she left. Sometimes I wish I can see her smile again, or bring her out to eat and have her show her black face because she doesn't like the food, or quietly observe how she scrutinise the food before putting it into her mouth. Then we will see her chewing the food with her 2 teeth that's left. Why did she have to leave so soon? Why not give me a few more years?
Sometimes I feel like the worst granddaughter on earth cause I sometimes find it troublesome to open my ipad and let her check her 4D numbers. I miss her so much and I can't believe she'll never see me in my gown. Or see me get married. I should have just let her come with me to choose the gowns. And then wear it to 1st floor and show it to her. There are so many things I should have done. But I will forever leave with the regrets because she is not coming back again.
My only consolation is that Daniel proposed before she was ill. Also, she knew I was getting married and she met Daniel's parents before so she can be rest assured that I am in good hands.
Still, every time I stop to think of her, I still wish she is here with us. I miss my grandma, our Datin Leong.
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