The Simple Joy In Life: It's everywhere

I have blogs everywhere. I think if we talk about wedding, I have at least 3 blogs where I talked about it at different phase of my life. I don't know what we can do. Maybe one day I will import everything over here. 

Today marks the 100th day Ah Ma left. I still find it hard to believe that she left. Sometimes I wish I can see her smile again, or bring her out to eat and have her show her black face because she doesn't like the food, or quietly observe how she scrutinise the food before putting it into her mouth. Then we will see her chewing the food with her 2 teeth that's left. Why did she have to leave so soon? Why not give me a few more years?

Sometimes I feel like the worst granddaughter on earth cause I sometimes find it troublesome to open my ipad and let her check her 4D numbers. I miss her so much and I can't believe she'll never see me in my gown. Or see me get married. I should have just let her come with me to choose the gowns. And then wear it to 1st floor and show it to her. There are so many things I should have done. But I will forever leave with the regrets because she is not coming back again.

My only consolation is that Daniel proposed before she was ill. Also, she knew I was getting married and she met Daniel's parents before so she can be rest assured that I am in good hands.

Still, every time I stop to think of her, I still wish she is here with us. I miss my grandma, our Datin Leong.

The Simple Joy in Life: We are married

And so we got married last Saturday. It is a little surreal and I still giggle when I call him my husband (awkward okay?) but we definitely feel married because it was one tiring day alright?

Many things went wrong but in the end, we pulled through with friends blessed by God. Seriously, without them, I don't know what would happen to the wedding. God's blessings are always with us.

Anyway, we are married! Will blog properly soon.

The Simple Joy in Life: Countdown - 16 days to go

Even though we have registered our marriage last Saturday on our 5th anniversary together, it still don't feel like we are married.

Maybe because the whole ceremony ended in 15 minutes and we spent the next 45minutes snapping photos.


Anyway, 16 days to go to the very day we have been preparing for. Because there are so many parties involved and so many different segment to prepare for, I still cannot visualise how the whole day will turn out. There are still a number of things to do such as:

• Finalising the tables
• Writing our speech
• Trying on the gowns that I have chosen
• Fixing my nails
• Finalising the plan for the day (morning and night)
• Briefing our helpers
• Going for my hen's night
• Clearing up the new place to bring over my clothes
• Buying bedsheet for the new place
• Finishing up our guestbook
• Finalising the decoration
• Finalising the hall decoration for dinner
• Packing the ang pows etc
  
  

Still. It is good to know that we have done a lot more of other stuff and what we have left to do are just finalising the whole thing. 16 days more and we will officially be husband and wife! Crazy isn't it? The whole I-have-a-crush-on-this-guy to I-am-with-the-guy-I-had-a-crush-on to I-am-marrying-the-guy-I-had-a-crush on to many more new things.

I'll probably not repeat the whole story of how we got together but maybe some advice that may or may not work:

It's okay if your girlfriends** or close friends** know who you have a crush on 
**as long as they are good people and not out there to ruin your life - this will be another lesson for another day.

And sometimes, it's okay to have a friend who cannot keep secret. Mine couldn't and now I am marrying this man because she told him I liked him.

Then again, may not be applicable to all situations. Follow my advice at your own risk.

Have a great weekend.

xoxo

P.

The Simple Joy in Life : Wedding Planning 2

Q: What is worse than a bridezilla?
A: An indecisive bridezilla?

Q: What is worse than an indecisive bridezilla?
A: Being the sister of the indecisive bridezilla.


Woe be to my sister. I, on the other hand, am super blessed to have her as my sister cause she makes everything good! Like I am on a tight budget so I said no to everything but she still does it for me and subsidised or even pay for everything!


Advice? Go get yourself your own awesome sister. Mine is MINE!

3 more days to signing myself off to be Mrs. Chong!

All the excitement is there because I am doing it with my best friend, best girlfriends and my awesome awesome family. If only Ah Ma is still here. I love my Ah Ma.

-P

Why am I a stressed out bride?

1. I am a little bridezilla (I want to be in control).

2. I tend to micromanage (I cannot help it!)

3. I always doubt my choices. ( I just don't want to regret my decisions and do something about it while I still can.)

When I say I doubt my choices I mean my choices in flowers, food, decorations etc. Not my choice in my husband-to-be ok?

So my advice is......no advice. I think if given a choice, I will still choose to do all of the above and be a stressed out bride. =)

-P

The Simple Joy of Life: 49 days

It has been slightly more than 49 days now that she left us. Our Datin Leong got a stroke in June and left us in August, just 3 months before my wedding.

Although as I grow older, I find that I am not as close as I was to her than when I was young, I knew that it will never be the same again without her. I've stopped writing for a while now because I just don't know how to put things into words. However, this time, I decided I should write. At least write how I feel at this moment so that I will never forget this.

When she left, the one thing I feared the most was that I will forget - I will forget how she looked like when she smiled, when she sulked, when she was grumbling or complaining. I was afraid that I will forget how she sounded like. I didn't know that it is far more than that.

The moment they nailed her coffin, I knew that I will never see her ever again. This is one of the greatest loss I have experienced. What I did not know is how much it still hurts, 49 days later, to see old people out and about, to go out for meals, to celebrate birthdays without her. Each time I pass by the hospital, it saddens me. Each time I drive pass her cemetery, I wished I have chance to tell her how much I love her. Each time I see her pictures, I miss her.

Soon after she left, we went back to our routine. Though it may seem the same, all of us know deep inside, that everything has changed. Still, we are glad that she does not have to suffer any longer, our datin, who feared pain and death. She left, without fully conscious of what to come.

The Simple Joy In Life: Wedding Planning

If there is one advice I can give to those who are planning their wedding, this is one you have to remember:

"There is no such thing as too much time left for planning."

I once had 15 months to plan and to do all I can for my wedding,

I thought I have so much time left,

so I procrastinated.

Today, I have less than 2 months and there are tonnes of things I couldn't do because I don't have enough time.

So.

"There is no such thing as too much time left for planning."

Start early.

You can thank me later.

xoxo

P.